5.29.2004
Sometimes I think that maybe I am too judgemental. I meet someone and make an immediate judgement of who they are, and what they are about. I think I need to keep more of an open mind. Sometimes people surprise you.
Today is a day of cleaning house, re-evaluating my life, looking for a new job, being thankful that I am no longer prostituting myself for money in a corporate job that I hated. Now I can say it out loud. Shell Vacations Sucks! Their product sucks! The people that run it are morally corrupt and don't care about their customers! There I've said it! I feel better now.
I'm also thankful for wonderful people in my life, and thankful to be in love. It's amazing how much one person can add to your life, or could take away from your life if they were to depart. Somehow the sun shines brighter, and I feel more alive when he is in my life. It makes me laugh that my heart skips a beat when he calls me "baby", or when I know I'm going to see him soon.
I recently started reading a really good book called Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho that tells a story of prostitution. The concept of prostitution and how people prostitute themselves in various ways to the point of selling their very soul and yet still judge those who prostitute their bodies has always intrigued me. In the foreword of this book is an ancient script, written in the third or fourth century B.C. as a Hymn to Isis, discovered in Nag Hammadi, and acts as a reminder that we are all interconnected; we are all one. The best of us has a part of the worst of us inherent in us. And the worst of us has a part of the best of us.
For I am the first and the last
I am the venerated and the despised
I am the prostitute and the saint
I am the wife and the virgin
I am the arms of my mother
I am barren and my children are many
I am the married woman and the spinster
I am the woman who gives birth and she who never procreated
I am the consolation for the pain of birth
I am the wife and the husband
I am the sister of my husband
And he is my rejected son
Always respect me
For I am the shameful and the magnificent one
Isis, in Egyptian mythology, goddess of fertility and motherhood.
Today is a day of cleaning house, re-evaluating my life, looking for a new job, being thankful that I am no longer prostituting myself for money in a corporate job that I hated. Now I can say it out loud. Shell Vacations Sucks! Their product sucks! The people that run it are morally corrupt and don't care about their customers! There I've said it! I feel better now.
I'm also thankful for wonderful people in my life, and thankful to be in love. It's amazing how much one person can add to your life, or could take away from your life if they were to depart. Somehow the sun shines brighter, and I feel more alive when he is in my life. It makes me laugh that my heart skips a beat when he calls me "baby", or when I know I'm going to see him soon.
I recently started reading a really good book called Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho that tells a story of prostitution. The concept of prostitution and how people prostitute themselves in various ways to the point of selling their very soul and yet still judge those who prostitute their bodies has always intrigued me. In the foreword of this book is an ancient script, written in the third or fourth century B.C. as a Hymn to Isis, discovered in Nag Hammadi, and acts as a reminder that we are all interconnected; we are all one. The best of us has a part of the worst of us inherent in us. And the worst of us has a part of the best of us.
For I am the first and the last
I am the venerated and the despised
I am the prostitute and the saint
I am the wife and the virgin
I am the arms of my mother
I am barren and my children are many
I am the married woman and the spinster
I am the woman who gives birth and she who never procreated
I am the consolation for the pain of birth
I am the wife and the husband
I am the sister of my husband
And he is my rejected son
Always respect me
For I am the shameful and the magnificent one
Isis, in Egyptian mythology, goddess of fertility and motherhood.
5.24.2004
Which Came First — The Chicken Or the Egg?
A chicken and an egg are lying in bed. The chicken is leaning against the headboard smoking a cigarette with a satisfied smile on its face. The egg, looking a bit pissed off, grabs the sheet and rolls over and says, "Well, I guess we finally answered THAT question!"
Doc
A chicken and an egg are lying in bed. The chicken is leaning against the headboard smoking a cigarette with a satisfied smile on its face. The egg, looking a bit pissed off, grabs the sheet and rolls over and says, "Well, I guess we finally answered THAT question!"
Doc
5.19.2004
So Close and Yet So Far
It feels so strange to see him, and be so close, and yet so far away. The whole of my being yearns to reach out and touch him. Natural instincts must be restrained and withheld. Lips that I can no longer kiss. Hands that I can no longer hold. His eyes pull at my heart. I mourn what I miss. Yet I would choose to be near him as his friend only, than to lose him altogether.
Yeah, okay, I have a big weakness for these old comics. They are pretty cool, huh?
Or how's this one from www.samcci.comics.org
It feels so strange to see him, and be so close, and yet so far away. The whole of my being yearns to reach out and touch him. Natural instincts must be restrained and withheld. Lips that I can no longer kiss. Hands that I can no longer hold. His eyes pull at my heart. I mourn what I miss. Yet I would choose to be near him as his friend only, than to lose him altogether.
Yeah, okay, I have a big weakness for these old comics. They are pretty cool, huh?
Or how's this one from www.samcci.comics.org
5.16.2004
I'M NOT IN LOVE
I'm not in love, so don't forget it.
It's just a silly phase I'm going through.
And just because I call you up,
Don't get me wrong, don't think you've got it made.
I'm not in love, no no, it's because...
I like to see you, but then again,
that doesn't mean you mean that much to me.
So if I call you, don't make a fuss -
don't tell your friends about the two of us.
I'm not in love, no no, it's because...
I keep your picture upon the wall.
It hides a nasty stain that's lying there.
So don't you ask me to give it back.
I know you know it doesn't mean that much to me.
I'm not in love, no no, it's because...
Ooh, you'll wait a long time for me.
Ooh, you'll wait a long time.
I'm not in love, I'm not in love...
What exactly is being in love? What makes you fall in love with someone? According to author Joe Beam, writer of "Becoming One", the first step in falling in love with someone is physical attraction to someone. The second step to truly falling in love is developing emotional intimacy once you have gotten to know someone.
According to a study of couples that was conducted over a ten year period, most couples fall in and out of love many times throughout the life of their relationship. But what was really interesting in this study was that the couples that were "madly in love" in the first couple of years, or who experienced "love at first sight" were usually the first ones to divorce in that critical first seven years of the relationship. The conclusion of the study was that this was due to the fact that these couples were more in love with the idea of who that person was than the actuality of who they were. It was the couples who built relationships on friendship and mutual respect that endured the test of time.
The following is an excerpt from "Love Is No Guarantee" by author Peter Hector:
"Let’s look at an explanation of love; there are many, but this one seems most accurate. When you love someone, you value that person highly-so highly that you have made a choice to offer your resources to nurture the one you love. You have also chosen to place her/his well-being and development as your highest priority. Yes, it is a choice, and to make a choice, you need information. Information gathering requires time. For this reason, there is no such thing as true love at first sight.
However, to offer yourself in this case does not mean to sacrifice or deprive you of resources. Most people relate “giving” to “relieving oneself of resources.” But psychologists familiar with human behavior observe that “giving love” has a different meaning. When you give love, you experience strength, joy, and aliveness.
Therefore, those who give of themselves are bestowing on another the most precious gift they have to offer: their joys, their understandings, and their love for life. To them, these things are more valuable than money, yet they are willing to give them freely. Then something wonderful happens. By giving, they enrich another’s life with the same joy, aliveness, and understanding that is a part of them. When all of these good things enhance the other person’s life, that person radiates those feelings, giving birth to a new joy, which can be shared by them both. So by giving love, people automatically receive love in return, even though they do not give it with this intention."
I'm not in love, so don't forget it.
It's just a silly phase I'm going through.
And just because I call you up,
Don't get me wrong, don't think you've got it made.
I'm not in love, no no, it's because...
I like to see you, but then again,
that doesn't mean you mean that much to me.
So if I call you, don't make a fuss -
don't tell your friends about the two of us.
I'm not in love, no no, it's because...
I keep your picture upon the wall.
It hides a nasty stain that's lying there.
So don't you ask me to give it back.
I know you know it doesn't mean that much to me.
I'm not in love, no no, it's because...
Ooh, you'll wait a long time for me.
Ooh, you'll wait a long time.
I'm not in love, I'm not in love...
What exactly is being in love? What makes you fall in love with someone? According to author Joe Beam, writer of "Becoming One", the first step in falling in love with someone is physical attraction to someone. The second step to truly falling in love is developing emotional intimacy once you have gotten to know someone.
According to a study of couples that was conducted over a ten year period, most couples fall in and out of love many times throughout the life of their relationship. But what was really interesting in this study was that the couples that were "madly in love" in the first couple of years, or who experienced "love at first sight" were usually the first ones to divorce in that critical first seven years of the relationship. The conclusion of the study was that this was due to the fact that these couples were more in love with the idea of who that person was than the actuality of who they were. It was the couples who built relationships on friendship and mutual respect that endured the test of time.
The following is an excerpt from "Love Is No Guarantee" by author Peter Hector:
"Let’s look at an explanation of love; there are many, but this one seems most accurate. When you love someone, you value that person highly-so highly that you have made a choice to offer your resources to nurture the one you love. You have also chosen to place her/his well-being and development as your highest priority. Yes, it is a choice, and to make a choice, you need information. Information gathering requires time. For this reason, there is no such thing as true love at first sight.
However, to offer yourself in this case does not mean to sacrifice or deprive you of resources. Most people relate “giving” to “relieving oneself of resources.” But psychologists familiar with human behavior observe that “giving love” has a different meaning. When you give love, you experience strength, joy, and aliveness.
Therefore, those who give of themselves are bestowing on another the most precious gift they have to offer: their joys, their understandings, and their love for life. To them, these things are more valuable than money, yet they are willing to give them freely. Then something wonderful happens. By giving, they enrich another’s life with the same joy, aliveness, and understanding that is a part of them. When all of these good things enhance the other person’s life, that person radiates those feelings, giving birth to a new joy, which can be shared by them both. So by giving love, people automatically receive love in return, even though they do not give it with this intention."
5.14.2004
To My Love;
LOVE IS RECKLESS
Love is reckless; not reason.
Reason seeks a profit.
Love comes on strong,
consuming herself, unabashed.
Yet, in the midst of suffering,
Love proceeds like a millstone,
hard surfaced and straightforward.
Having died of self-interest,
she risks everything and asks for nothing.
Love gambles away every gift God bestows.
Without cause God gave us Being;
without cause, give it back again.
--Rumi
This poem is one of my favorites. It describes perfect, true, unconditional love. I aspire to love perfectly, but have recently been reminded that I am not nearly there.
They say that if you really, really, really want something, you will get it. They also say that if you really, really, really don't want something, you will get it. Because what we put our attention on is what expands, whether it is positive or negative. I feel like a hypocrite, because I have always expounded on this, and yet recently I have focused on my fears and insecurities, and true to form, they expanded.
I aspire to make choices from love, and not from fear; yet I have recently been guilty of making choices from fear... a fear that wells up in me, and clutches at my heart until I can't breathe. Making choices from fear will bring you exactly what you fear most.
I pray for the strength to overcome fear. To live fearlessly and love recklessly, without reason, in the midst of suffering, risking everything, and asking for nothing...
Find all the answers to all your love problems in LOVE Problems & Advice; What Every Girl Should Know from QuasarComics.com
LOVE IS RECKLESS
Love is reckless; not reason.
Reason seeks a profit.
Love comes on strong,
consuming herself, unabashed.
Yet, in the midst of suffering,
Love proceeds like a millstone,
hard surfaced and straightforward.
Having died of self-interest,
she risks everything and asks for nothing.
Love gambles away every gift God bestows.
Without cause God gave us Being;
without cause, give it back again.
--Rumi
This poem is one of my favorites. It describes perfect, true, unconditional love. I aspire to love perfectly, but have recently been reminded that I am not nearly there.
They say that if you really, really, really want something, you will get it. They also say that if you really, really, really don't want something, you will get it. Because what we put our attention on is what expands, whether it is positive or negative. I feel like a hypocrite, because I have always expounded on this, and yet recently I have focused on my fears and insecurities, and true to form, they expanded.
I aspire to make choices from love, and not from fear; yet I have recently been guilty of making choices from fear... a fear that wells up in me, and clutches at my heart until I can't breathe. Making choices from fear will bring you exactly what you fear most.
I pray for the strength to overcome fear. To live fearlessly and love recklessly, without reason, in the midst of suffering, risking everything, and asking for nothing...
Find all the answers to all your love problems in LOVE Problems & Advice; What Every Girl Should Know from QuasarComics.com
5.12.2004
Tough Love
Most of America's populace thinks it very improper to spank children, so I have tried other methods to control my son when he has one of "those moments".
One that I found very effective is for me to just take the child for a car ride and talk. He usually calms down and stops misbehaving after our little car ride together.
I've included the photo below of one of my sessions, with my son, in case you would like to use the technique. Its very effective!
Thanks to Rob O'Malley for that contribution!
Most of America's populace thinks it very improper to spank children, so I have tried other methods to control my son when he has one of "those moments".
One that I found very effective is for me to just take the child for a car ride and talk. He usually calms down and stops misbehaving after our little car ride together.
I've included the photo below of one of my sessions, with my son, in case you would like to use the technique. Its very effective!
Thanks to Rob O'Malley for that contribution!
Playing Hard to Get
Sometimes I think I must have a masculine mind. Don't get me wrong, I am all woman. But my mind seems to operate a little differently than most women. I have always been more competitive, more adventurous, more ambitious, more logical, more intellectual than most women I know. At the same time, I am also very in touch with my emotions, unlike most men. And like most women, I have strong maternal instincts, and a nurturing, compassionate nature. There is one other way that I seem to be different from many women. I don't play games. I know what I want, and I never play hard to get. But then, neither do I want to chase a man. I am not the huntress. I want a man to pursue me. But if I'm interested, he won't have to pursue too hard.
What is it about the girl who plays hard to get that makes her so hard to forget? Is it the mystery; the thrill of the hunt? The idea that if you could just catch her, all your dreams would come true? The problem with the elusive girl is, that if you ever did catch her, she may not be all that your mind created her to be. You may be dreaming of fool's gold, when you already have the real thing. Why is it that what we can't have always seems to be more desirable than what we do have?
Olivia DeHavilland in "Hard to Get"
The ongoing love affair men have always had with the woman who plays
Hard To Get
Sometimes I think I must have a masculine mind. Don't get me wrong, I am all woman. But my mind seems to operate a little differently than most women. I have always been more competitive, more adventurous, more ambitious, more logical, more intellectual than most women I know. At the same time, I am also very in touch with my emotions, unlike most men. And like most women, I have strong maternal instincts, and a nurturing, compassionate nature. There is one other way that I seem to be different from many women. I don't play games. I know what I want, and I never play hard to get. But then, neither do I want to chase a man. I am not the huntress. I want a man to pursue me. But if I'm interested, he won't have to pursue too hard.
What is it about the girl who plays hard to get that makes her so hard to forget? Is it the mystery; the thrill of the hunt? The idea that if you could just catch her, all your dreams would come true? The problem with the elusive girl is, that if you ever did catch her, she may not be all that your mind created her to be. You may be dreaming of fool's gold, when you already have the real thing. Why is it that what we can't have always seems to be more desirable than what we do have?
Olivia DeHavilland in "Hard to Get"
The ongoing love affair men have always had with the woman who plays
Hard To Get
5.09.2004
Thanks to my dear brother-in-law Mark B. who sent me the following regarding a child's take on romantic love:
"I'm in favor of love as long as it doesn't happen when 'Dinosaurs' is on television." -- Jill, age 6
"Love is foolish ... but I still might try it sometime." -- Floyd, age 9
"Yesterday I kissed a girl in a private place ... We were behind a tree." -- Carey, age 7
"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." -- Dave, age 8
"I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding fourth grade hard enough." -- Regina, age 10
On what falling in love is like:
"Like an avalanche where you have to run for your life." -- John, age 9
"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." -- Glenn, age 7
Concerning why love happens between two particular people
"One of the people has freckles and so he finds somebody else who has freckles too." -- Andrew, age 6
"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell ... That's why perfume and deodorant are so popular." -- Mae, age 9
"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful." -- Manuel, age 8
Two Forces in the Universe: Love and Fear
I wish for you .................Nothing but Love.
"I'm in favor of love as long as it doesn't happen when 'Dinosaurs' is on television." -- Jill, age 6
"Love is foolish ... but I still might try it sometime." -- Floyd, age 9
"Yesterday I kissed a girl in a private place ... We were behind a tree." -- Carey, age 7
"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." -- Dave, age 8
"I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding fourth grade hard enough." -- Regina, age 10
On what falling in love is like:
"Like an avalanche where you have to run for your life." -- John, age 9
"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." -- Glenn, age 7
Concerning why love happens between two particular people
"One of the people has freckles and so he finds somebody else who has freckles too." -- Andrew, age 6
"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell ... That's why perfume and deodorant are so popular." -- Mae, age 9
"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful." -- Manuel, age 8
Two Forces in the Universe: Love and Fear
I wish for you .................Nothing but Love.
And now the answer to that age-old question...
Are The Stars Out Tonight?
There's something about the universe that completely fascinates me. That we are actually nothing more than little specks on a tiny little speck (kind of like Whoville in "Horton Hears A Who"!)
floating in an enormous universe filled with galaxies of stars, planets, mysterious blackholes and warped space. The universe is a place of amazing beauty and mystery. I am in complete awe.
For instance, check out the Bug Nebula in this picture taken recently with the NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope. Look at the incredibly complex beauty of gases surrounding one of the hottest known stars of the universe.
The Bug Nebula shows impressive walls of compressed gas, laced with trailing strands and bubbling outflows. A dark, dusty torus surrounds the inner nebula (seen at the upper right). At the heart of the turmoil is one of the hottest stars known. Despite a sizzling temperature of at least 250,000 degrees C, the star itself has never been seen, as it is hidden by the blanket of dust and shines most brightly in the ultraviolet, making it hard to observe.
Or this amazing galaxy, a mere 300-million light years from earth, 150,000 light years in diameter, making it larger than our own galaxy, the Milky Way.
Resembling a diamond-encrusted bracelet, a ring of brilliant blue star clusters wraps around the yellowish nucleus of what was once a normal spiral galaxy in this new image released on April 22, 2004 from NASA 's Hubble Space Telescope. This image is being released to commemorate the 14th anniversary of Hubble's launch on April 24, 1990 and its deployment from the space shuttle Discovery on April 25, 1990. The galaxy, cataloged as AM 0644-741, is a member of the class of so-called 'ring galaxies.' It lies 300 million light-years away in the direction of the southern constellation Dorado.
On those days when I get caught up in my own personal dramas, carried away with my own petty little worries, I like to think about the universe. It puts everything back into perspective.
There's something about the universe that completely fascinates me. That we are actually nothing more than little specks on a tiny little speck (kind of like Whoville in "Horton Hears A Who"!)
floating in an enormous universe filled with galaxies of stars, planets, mysterious blackholes and warped space. The universe is a place of amazing beauty and mystery. I am in complete awe.
For instance, check out the Bug Nebula in this picture taken recently with the NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope. Look at the incredibly complex beauty of gases surrounding one of the hottest known stars of the universe.
The Bug Nebula shows impressive walls of compressed gas, laced with trailing strands and bubbling outflows. A dark, dusty torus surrounds the inner nebula (seen at the upper right). At the heart of the turmoil is one of the hottest stars known. Despite a sizzling temperature of at least 250,000 degrees C, the star itself has never been seen, as it is hidden by the blanket of dust and shines most brightly in the ultraviolet, making it hard to observe.
Or this amazing galaxy, a mere 300-million light years from earth, 150,000 light years in diameter, making it larger than our own galaxy, the Milky Way.
Resembling a diamond-encrusted bracelet, a ring of brilliant blue star clusters wraps around the yellowish nucleus of what was once a normal spiral galaxy in this new image released on April 22, 2004 from NASA 's Hubble Space Telescope. This image is being released to commemorate the 14th anniversary of Hubble's launch on April 24, 1990 and its deployment from the space shuttle Discovery on April 25, 1990. The galaxy, cataloged as AM 0644-741, is a member of the class of so-called 'ring galaxies.' It lies 300 million light-years away in the direction of the southern constellation Dorado.
On those days when I get caught up in my own personal dramas, carried away with my own petty little worries, I like to think about the universe. It puts everything back into perspective.
5.04.2004
WEIRD ANIMAL HUMOR
I am somewhat of an animal freak. I have a weakness for children and animals. I get weird and talk baby-talk. So, okay, I'm a little strange, but I can't help it. Anyways, I have been collecting funny animal photos for a while, and thought I'd share some of them here.
This guy is just too cool for words.
This is a great advertisement for Coke. Even chipmunks drink Coke! A whole new market.
Evil Frog Making Evil Plans
This kangaroo doesn't look happy having his sex life interrupted; the kid's lucky he didn't get punched!
Elephant Cunnilingus?!
Someone really pissed this guy off!
I don't usually like staged photos, but this one is pretty funny. I think he's gonna go for it.
Who says Cats & Dogs can't get along? These two are obviously pretty intimate!
I just love this little guy's face!
Apparently he didn't read the sign.
And a few words on the wisdom of children...
A first-grade teacher collected well-known proverbs. She gave each child in her class the first half of a proverb and asked them to come up with the remainder of the proverb. Their insight may surprise you.
Better to be safe than . . . punch a 5th grader
It's always darkest before . . . daylight savings
You can lead a horse to water but . . . how?
Don't bite the hand that . . . looks dirty
If you lie down with dogs, you'll . . . stink in the morning
Happy the bride who . . . gets all the presents
Don't put off till tomorrow what . . . you put on to go to bed
Children should be seen and not . . . spanked or grounded
You get out of something what you . . . see pictured on the box
Better late than . . . pregnant
I am somewhat of an animal freak. I have a weakness for children and animals. I get weird and talk baby-talk. So, okay, I'm a little strange, but I can't help it. Anyways, I have been collecting funny animal photos for a while, and thought I'd share some of them here.
This guy is just too cool for words.
This is a great advertisement for Coke. Even chipmunks drink Coke! A whole new market.
Evil Frog Making Evil Plans
This kangaroo doesn't look happy having his sex life interrupted; the kid's lucky he didn't get punched!
Elephant Cunnilingus?!
Someone really pissed this guy off!
I don't usually like staged photos, but this one is pretty funny. I think he's gonna go for it.
Who says Cats & Dogs can't get along? These two are obviously pretty intimate!
I just love this little guy's face!
Apparently he didn't read the sign.
And a few words on the wisdom of children...
A first-grade teacher collected well-known proverbs. She gave each child in her class the first half of a proverb and asked them to come up with the remainder of the proverb. Their insight may surprise you.
Better to be safe than . . . punch a 5th grader
It's always darkest before . . . daylight savings
You can lead a horse to water but . . . how?
Don't bite the hand that . . . looks dirty
If you lie down with dogs, you'll . . . stink in the morning
Happy the bride who . . . gets all the presents
Don't put off till tomorrow what . . . you put on to go to bed
Children should be seen and not . . . spanked or grounded
You get out of something what you . . . see pictured on the box
Better late than . . . pregnant
Last night was memorable. Mark and I went for a hike in Runyon Canyon. Amazing how you can feel like you're out of the city right there in the middle of Los Angeles. At first there were tons of people walking with their dogs. Finally after the sunset, it cleared out, and there was a magnificent view of Los Angeles at night. It was a warm balmy night, with a full moon, and I was in the best of company. It was one of those moments that you never want to end. We stayed quite a awhile, and when we finally decided to leave, the gates were locked, and we had to climb over a very high fence.
Today was an uncomfortably warm day, just like yesterday. I went grocery shopping at the usual spot, Jon's Market, dressed for warm weather, wearing my short black skirt, a short black top that ends just above my belly button, and flip flops. I am always amused by the male species, and how their heads can be turned so easily by a skirt. When I wear jeans or sweats, they look, but they don't break their necks. But there is something about a skirt that makes men look twice. It makes me laugh! Today, I even had a nice-looking man in his mid-twenties follow me to my car to ask for my number. How flattering, and no, he didn't get lucky!
Los Angeles at Night
Today was an uncomfortably warm day, just like yesterday. I went grocery shopping at the usual spot, Jon's Market, dressed for warm weather, wearing my short black skirt, a short black top that ends just above my belly button, and flip flops. I am always amused by the male species, and how their heads can be turned so easily by a skirt. When I wear jeans or sweats, they look, but they don't break their necks. But there is something about a skirt that makes men look twice. It makes me laugh! Today, I even had a nice-looking man in his mid-twenties follow me to my car to ask for my number. How flattering, and no, he didn't get lucky!
Los Angeles at Night
5.01.2004
Does anyone have any aspirin for the heart? I could sure use some right now. I have a terrible heartache.
Last night I went home around midnight in a rather depressed state of mind, and got on the computer to check my e-mail. On the computer screen, left there by my daughter, was a webpage with an article entitled "The Secret of Happiness". According to this article, the secret of happiness is to appreciate what you have. So simple. According to this article, Judaism says: "Happiness is not a happening. Happiness is a state of mind. You can have everything in the world and still be miserable. Or you can have relatively little and feel unbounded joy." "Who is rich? The one who appreciates what he has. (Talmud - Pirkei Avot 4:1)" Lately I have allowed my happiness to be influenced by the choices of others, and I have suffered. But rather than focus on what I cannot have, I shall focus on the riches that I do have. For I am truly rich in friends and family. I have lived an interesting, if somewhat unusual life, and I have been blessed with many gifts and talents. I am thankful that I know what I want in this life. I may or may not be able to have everything exactly as I want it right now, but I must trust that what is meant to be, will be.
I will focus on what my passions are in this life. What am I passionate about? The people I love. My children, who are amazing people. Jonathan is an incredibly intelligent (140 I.Q), creative, talented, tall, broad-shouldered good-looking kid (a better-looking version of Tiger Woods), with a somewhat dry, sarcastic sense of humor. He is very focused, and has taught himself the art of animation, as well as html code, java script and action scripting. Jasmine is a very bright, very beautiful young girl (she looks like a cross between Beyonce' and Alicia Keys) with more than her share of charm. Yes, and the boys are all lined up. (scary!) She is very conscientious, and also very focused. She is extremely talented in dance, and as a vocal artist. Jordan has always excelled in everything he does. He's also an incredibly intelligent(142 I.Q.), good-looking kid, straight A student in the GATE program (for gifted and talented students) who also excels in sports, is sought after by all the girls, all the guys want to be his best friend, and he is the teacher's favorite. He is also a mama's boy. He loves to hang out with me. Sounds too perfect? Well, if it makes you feel better, he also makes messes all over the house. Do I sound like the proud mom? Well, I have alot to be proud of.
I'm also proud of my friends. I have a weakness for talented, intelligent people with a great sense of humor. They say the way to a man's heart is through his stomach. Well the way to my heart is to make me laugh. I guess that's why I surround myself with people who are funny. They like me too, because I always laugh at their jokes. Some of my favorite people are: well, Mark, of course, who has an amazing sense of humor, and is also an incredibly talented, writer/director/cinematographer/artist and a good, trustworthy friend that I have always felt a deep connection to. Regardless of what choices he makes, I will always count him as one of my favorite people. Suzanne is awesome too. She is actually a stand-up comedian, and she makes me laugh everyday at work. She is one of those friends that if I didn't see her for five years, nothing would be different between us. There is a closeness that will always be there. Chris is a dear friend that I rarely get to see anymore. He is also an incredibly talented comedian who I have always felt connected to. His specialty is improv. You just never know what's going to come out of his mouth next! Richard is a new friend of mine, who is also really funny. He's also a very talented writer/producer/director, specializing in documentary films. JP is someone I connected with instantly, and I adore him. He is a pure spirit, and is passionate about life. "Life is good!", he always says in his thick french accent. Jani, my dear, dear sister, will always be someone that I love dearly. She is so funny. She is like a modern day Lucille Ball. Mark, my brother-in-law, who has been there for me through every crisis of my life, who has always made me laugh with his unique sense of humor. RJ, who I shared five years of my life with. He doesn't want my friendship anymore, but I will always cherish the memory of his friendship, and his amazing sense of humor and talent. There are many more as well, (Brian, Michael, Angie, Anne, Bozana, Kim...the list goes on). I am certainly rich in friends! Hey, I'm feeling better already! I have much to be thankful for.
